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Not If But When

by Lost on Purpose

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1.
Guts 02:24
I’ve forgone being an infantryman For the life of a salary man Thank you Paul for the inspiration I’ll carry the torch from here on out What if I knew the seven soldiers killed today? I wish it were you Who broke up with me So I could obsess Over what should have been I’d write twenty songs all about us But give up halfway and go get drunk Tell a story of modern times As we struggle to live modern lives Always connected but we’re so alone That’s a truth we’ve always known Have you seen your face in the dark? Here I am in the same old place Reciting lines to a different face Evergreen smells like Christmas I realize I’m going to miss this Are you the rose that I lost? Are you the hole in my gut?
2.
A Pencil Without Lead (free) 02:13
A pencil without lead Metaphor my head A boxer who won’t fight Two lovers at first sight A broken beating heart My thoughts becoming art Seated by my side We both begin to write A needle pulling thread Friends who want us dead Transatlantic flight Away from the third reich A photograph of ghosts Floating round your home A number in your name To me it’s all the same Suit up your heart (hope you’re satisfied baby, I love you, you love me) A pencil without lead A needle pulling thread A photograph of ghosts Floating round your home
3.
Return 03:13
I can’t get a rest From this awful mess These forces that divide us In two separate souls Have a common Sense of purpose To keep us out of love As the weekend often does You say the time was meaningful I know, I know I’ve been a bit too cold As such I’m bound to respect you My sense is this We’re waist deep in ifs A concocted attraction To give us something to do While we figure out What it was That we should’ve knew Well a little of this, a little of that Today is just, just like the last A little of this, a little of that I’ll gladly give, everything back A little of this, a little of that September’s only one month back A little of this, a little of that A little villa’s a memory trap You’re so on you own You’ve always been alone Cause in your dreams you’re seeing things Without an ounce of control You’ve learned to accept things About my psychology If we wish for different things We’ll never want to let go Your sense, your heart, your breath, your name Your goals, your hopes, your dreams, your pain Your friends, your job, your words, your past Your faults, your loss, your first, your last Your guilt, your shame, your right, your fear Your call, your lust, you’re wrong, your cheer Your cells, your blood, your sweat, your soul Your all, you’re all, your all, you’re all
4.
FV 01:04
At first you were in love Then unsettled answered hovered over your head First to rise above And completely understand nothing but who you are Cancer of the stars It’s your purpose to illuminate our way in the dark Heal a broken heart For everybody I know, for those who we’ve lost
5.
A Novel 03:11
Write another story For people to read Make it an historic Murder mystery Pour a gin and tonic To further ease your mind Your words are so melodic Your characters divine Drive into the desert Off the beaten path You’re counting on the weather To humor you at last Don’t care about the distance The setting is the same Develop your resistance To anger fear and pain To summers without rain To books bearing your name To memories in your brain Two lovers without shame Start it in Vienna A murder in the street And soon your hero enters in chapter three The movie’s gonna make a mint just wait and see He meets his love interest within a week Just focus on me twice in the city made of light
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The 70s 03:16
I was a dead man in 1970 I’ll be a dead man in 2070 I was a dead man in 1970 I’ll be a dead man in 2070 And all that matters is what’s in between the 70s yeah I was a dead man in 1970 I’ll be a dead man in 2070 I was a dead man in 1970 I’ll be a dead man in 2070 And all that matters is what’s in between the 70s yeah I’ve been dead since time began til 1979 I’ve been dead since time began but right now I am alive Yes I am alive All that matters is what’s in between the 70s yeah
8.
Houses in my dreams With you standing in the eaves I’ll let you decide on the color As long as I get to choose the chords
9.
Aztec 02:56
Get your head down, down under the table This girl coming through might spawn a tornado She used to be an ancient spice trader She sharpened her tongue with 8th century sailors And now she only understands the language only money can command There’s Aztec blood in her past it pools under the guise of sweet romance And I love her
10.
Navajo 03:07
I don’t seem to have a home Like a misplaced Navajo I’m on the road Tooth by tooth, your smile’s slow I see ten but there’s twenty to go I’m not alone You broke your back on the side of the road Pulled at my heart, but I swear You’re on your own A little kiss is more than a shot Especially if you’re especially hot You are or you’re not You are the light You packed your bags and it’s time to go You’re fooling yourself if you think You’re on your own Your eyes look the same shade as the sky Clouds in your face Make me want to cry I’d give my life to learn how to sing Songs that make you forget everything Let’s drive and stir up the dust Forget the past, now it’s only us You are the light
11.
You’re the first face I’ve seen in a while Unbelievable as that sounds You’re the reason why I left Ohio It’s suddenly clear to me now And when I laugh I cry I write these songs to feel like I’m alive It almost works sometimes Music makes the world seem more real Bathed in a cool white light Don’t give up oh no it’s all you know it’s all you know you know Don’t give up it’s all you know uh oh it’s all you know you know And when I laugh I cry And pine for summertime I hold your hand in mine I know I know I know I know And when I laugh I cry This world is yours and mine And when I laugh I cry
12.
My Mind 02:33
My best don’t stand a chance To start up a great romance As we ride the rails through the heart of France So learn about Ohio life Everybody I knew was white And I heard things that I believed til I learned they were lies Well child think and child see Plays piano and watches tv Drinks beer but who really cares? There’s more that worries me Got a gun so I got a shot To right wrongs, yeah I got a lot If things were ever up to me I’d mandate getting lost You shouldn’t show what you’ve got going on in your mind She might not like it, I think she’s scared of what she’ll find In your mind, in your mind I’ll never run out of dreams As long as you’ve got me I thought I told you never stop to think I close my eyes and weep As the music takes over me And you finally find yourself among the lines you write and sing Oh baby I put myself on the line And swore that things were fine But everybody knows that no one can be happy all the time I should have been ready for this to hurt God knows I expect the worst You should’ve been a writer you paint pictures with your words You shouldn’t show what you’ve got going on in your mind She might not like it, I think she’s scared of what she’ll find Is that enough to keep you staring in my eyes? I just regret that I’m the only one who can’t hide From my mind, from my mind, from my mind, from my mind
13.
FV2 01:27
It’s never, it’s never too late To learn how to change, to start something great The doctor’s tell you you’ll die, well just spit in their eye You know it’s a lie Starting with this song Your life will be long, you’re so goddamn strong I’ll tell you what I’ll do, I’ll always remember you If it’s the last thing I do Come it won’t be long You went to heaven upon a song Goodbye forever goodbye I won’t let you die
14.
I Don't Know 02:10
15.
Dancing lines Offer an escape for your mind Now’s your time To open up and see what you find Jesus Christ Drunk off all that miracle wine Now’s the time Just disappear Like the ghosts Who pass right through our cameras Your friends are near From coast to coast An empty highway connecting souls
16.
It’s been long It’s been a long time Since I wrote I’m alright Just as long as We settle down Come my son There’s one thing I should have done As simple as the Sunday sun On the heartbeat of our Mothers’ love Knowing one day you’ll be gone I know one day… Like your Father who I should have known Hold me closer to your smoke-filled lungs I wish that this is how it could have gone Who will stand above me all alone? Thinking what to tell his unborn son All the years and all the love we lost Oh no no no Part of me is already dead You mean more than a world of friends Oh no no no Oh no no no

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released October 22, 2007

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I live in Japan. I sound like Beethoven conducted by Beethoven the St. Bernard (look it up).
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